“I love who i was when i'm w you. But i hate who i am now when i'm w you.”

-Me

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Ohi i'm back online! Will try to update SOON. & if you're observant enough, you might have notice the blog hasn't been lovey dovey for some time..... Hmmm.

I think I may have lost that one person. That you want to hate but you can't because despite all the pain you love them so much. Hate is not an option. I still love you I fear I always will. I know it is mostly my fault for resisting you and putting up a barrier. Something I created out of knowing that you could break my heart in a moment. I think I may have lost you. And I just want you to know I am sorry. I just wish you could see how much I love you. And I hate myself for not showing it to you more. And now I have learned too late that barriers don't protect me they just hurt you. And that breaks my heart more then anything. I loved you right away because you saw through me and did not care how hard I made it. You were kind and generous. I love you with all my heart and I hope you can somehow forgive me for pushing you away. You made me delicate and I wake up crying thinking of how far you are. I am sorry for playing hard to get after the games were over. I love you with all my heart.

“Love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy.”

-Drew Barrymore

“At the end of the day, you either focus on what separates you… or what holds you together.”

-The O.C.

The one who made you cry, is the one who can make you smile to make it stop.

-Me

Created a Tumblr out of boredom, might be going over.

It’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, you keep holding on, but when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. And it’s weird how feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want, and how you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start.

I don’t know if I love you more than you love me, I don’t know if I love you less than you love me and I don’t know if we love each other just the same. And I guess we’ll never know because there will never be an objective measure of love. But what I know is that I love you with all that I have and if that’s not enough then I’m sorry my love and my heart isn’t enough, then I’m sorry I’m not enough for you.

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.
-Bertrand Russell

Happy third month, baby boy.

We've all been in love, but we never know it's not true love until it's over. So what if maybe there is no one or two or three or four or five? I mean, what if there is no such thing as true love, and we're just too afraid to admit it, so we keep on dressing up, we keep on pretending to be something that we're not. We keep turning our lives upside down, losing ourselves in something that we hope is better than what we think that we are. What if that something that we're looking for just doesn't exist?

-Boys & Girls

Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.

“I need you and you don’t know how hard that is for me to accept, but it’s a whole hell of a lot easier than trying to imagine my life without you.”

-Boys & Girls

For you baby, y'know i ♥ you.