Rufus: You're scared because you're in love with me like you've never been in love with any of your husbands. Because unlike a Bart Bass someone like me can actually break your heart. And I know because right now you're breaking mine.

-GG

Do you remember what I was when we first met? I'd built walls around my heart, gated them, and thrown away the key. I had been hurt, I told you from the beginning. I'd been used, tricked, played with, but most of all, hurt. I thought it best to never fall in love again. So I locked my heart.


You figured it out quite soon. I said don't fall in love with me. I cannot fall in love with you. I won't. I'm too hurt, too damaged, too afraid to go through all of this once more. I'd decided love was just a scam. So we became friends, and that was okay with me, and with you. And it was all nice and comforting and I let myself trust you.


You would listen to me for hours, as we talked about everything and nothing. You learned why I wasn't willing to let anyone love me, and though you said you would never do that kind of a thing to me, I wasn't ready to trust you to test it out. I kept my walls intact even when I started remembering where I'd thrown the key. It was the only way to keep myself from falling in love.
But then something happened. I woke up three weeks ago and realised that I love you. And you said you love me, and you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didn't realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart.


Now I know. You didn't find the key. You broke into my heart, and I let you. Just don't break my heart.

-K (Le Love)

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”
-Sarah Dessen (The Truth About Forever)

i'm finally back online!!! w a slow connection & screwed keyboard, grrr. /:<

“Find a guy who doesn’t get mad at you when you say he's crazy, who instead, would reply “yeah crazy over you”... I found one.”
-Me

Lost the vibe to update...

Looking for answers,
or some kind of sign,
So many questions,
So little time
Got to know,
before I go...

Is there more to love than just enough?
Is there more to sex than just the lust?
Is there more to me than what you feel?
Is there more to us than just what's real?