Monday, December 28, 2009

“At the end of the day, you either focus on what separates you… or what holds you together.”
-The O.C.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

The one who made you cry, is the one who can make you smile to make it stop.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Created a Tumblr out of boredom, might be going over.
It’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, you keep holding on, but when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. And it’s weird how feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want, and how you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I don’t know if I love you more than you love me, I don’t know if I love you less than you love me and I don’t know if we love each other just the same. And I guess we’ll never know because there will never be an objective measure of love. But what I know is that I love you with all that I have and if that’s not enough then I’m sorry my love and my heart isn’t enough, then I’m sorry I’m not enough for you.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Monday, December 7, 2009

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.
-Bertrand Russell

Happy third month, baby boy.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

We've all been in love, but we never know it's not true love until it's over. So what if maybe there is no one or two or three or four or five? I mean, what if there is no such thing as true love, and we're just too afraid to admit it, so we keep on dressing up, we keep on pretending to be something that we're not. We keep turning our lives upside down, losing ourselves in something that we hope is better than what we think that we are. What if that something that we're looking for just doesn't exist?
-Boys & Girls

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

“I need you and you don’t know how hard that is for me to accept, but it’s a whole hell of a lot easier than trying to imagine my life without you.”
-Boys & Girls

Sunday, November 15, 2009

For you baby, y'know i ♥ you.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

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Monday, November 9, 2009

Love - It’s when you feel safe, just being in the person’s arms and that feeling you get when you kiss them. It’s after you’ve had a bad day, and that person is the first person you want to talk to, and when you have good news, they’re the first person you want to tell. It’s thinking about them just when you wake up, and when you go to bed at night, they’re the last thing on your mind. It’s when time seems to fly by too quickly when you’re together and you never want to go. It’s when no one else can hurt you more, but no one else can make you happier at the same time.

Friday, November 6, 2009

“As soon as you start to have romantic feelings for someone, you’re fucked. You & this person are going to hurt one another. Even if you are together for the rest of your life, you’re going to feel indescribable pain. When you’re in, no matter how deep, you’re in.”

Happy 2nd month, i guess...

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Everytime I look at you, I feel better. It shocks me, it knocks my wind out, but it’s true. I don’t have to have sex with you, I’d be happy just to look at you from across the room. And even that, anything, any piece of you, and hopefully all of you, that’d be the best thing because I love you.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Rufus: You're scared because you're in love with me like you've never been in love with any of your husbands. Because unlike a Bart Bass someone like me can actually break your heart. And I know because right now you're breaking mine.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Do you remember what I was when we first met? I'd built walls around my heart, gated them, and thrown away the key. I had been hurt, I told you from the beginning. I'd been used, tricked, played with, but most of all, hurt. I thought it best to never fall in love again. So I locked my heart.

You figured it out quite soon. I said don't fall in love with me. I cannot fall in love with you. I won't. I'm too hurt, too damaged, too afraid to go through all of this once more. I'd decided love was just a scam. So we became friends, and that was okay with me, and with you. And it was all nice and comforting and I let myself trust you.

You would listen to me for hours, as we talked about everything and nothing. You learned why I wasn't willing to let anyone love me, and though you said you would never do that kind of a thing to me, I wasn't ready to trust you to test it out. I kept my walls intact even when I started remembering where I'd thrown the key. It was the only way to keep myself from falling in love.

But then something happened. I woke up three weeks ago and realised that I love you. And you said you love me, and you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didn't realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart.

Now I know. You didn't find the key. You broke into my heart, and I let you. Just don't break my heart.
-K (Le Love)
“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”
-Sarah Dessen (The Truth About Forever)

i'm finally back online!!! w a slow connection & screwed keyboard, grrr. /:<

Saturday, October 10, 2009

“Find a guy who doesn’t get mad at you when you say he's crazy, who instead, would reply “yeah crazy over you”... I found one.”

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Lost the vibe to update...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Looking for answers,
or some kind of sign,
So many questions,
So little time
Got to know,
before I go...

Is there more to love than just enough?
Is there more to sex than just the lust?
Is there more to me than what you feel?
Is there more to us than just what's real?

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Henry: “I’m afraid of losing you.”
Clare smiles. “How could you lose me? I’m not going anywhere.”
“I worry that you will get tired of putting up with my undependableness and you will leave me.”
“But I never want to leave you.”
Clare puts her sketchbook aside. I sit up. “I won’t ever leave you,” she says. “Even though you’re always leaving me.”
“But I never want to leave you.”

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
“What about you? Are you the happiest and the saddest right now that you’ve ever been?”
“Of course I am.”
“Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.”
-Nicole Krauss (in The History Of Love)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

“You know what I love most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we endlessly make fun of each other, but never take the teasing to heart. I absolutely adore how when I turn away from you when we’re fighting, you try to stay mad, then run after me. I love the look in your eyes when we kiss or how you stay up to watch me sleep. I love how I can call you anytime when I need someone and somehow you never cease to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as i need you. And most of all, I love how you love me.”

Monday, September 21, 2009

The thing about you is you’re fun, you make me laugh, and you make me feel more alive. Okay, you make me a little crazy sometimes, but there are these moments in my mind, crystal-clear images of you and me and how we fit together, and it all makes such perfect sense, and I know what I want; I want you.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

No one gets to me the way you do,
the way you talk to me,
the way you look at me,
the way you smile at me,
I’m telling you,
no one gets to me the way you do.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

“I know he’s not perfect, but he trys so hard for me. And I thank God for that cause how boring would that be? It’s the little imperfections, it’s the sudden change of plans. When he misreads the directions and we’re lost. But holding hands - I live for little moments like that.”

Monday, September 14, 2009

“Ultimately, I’m looking for someone I can talk to about anything and everything, who I don’t have to filter myself around, someone I can cry in front of or tell my biggest fears or most embarrassing secrets, someone who I know isn’t judging me, and who, in return, will open up to me. There’s plenty that goes on in my head that I don’t share with even my closest friends; as revealing as I may be about my sex life, I’m actually fairly private about quite a bit. It’s rare to find someone I can truly let go with, but that’s what I want in the future: someone who lets me be me.”

Saturday, September 12, 2009

“It’s not about being who someone else wants you to be. It’s about being completely yourself and finding someone who loves each and every bit of it. Someone who loves your laugh and your smile and the sound of your voice and the things you say. Someone who loves you even when you’re in a bad mood or when your face is red and puffy with tears.”

Thursday, September 10, 2009

“If you ask why I’m not interested in someone, I might say their nose is too big, or they don’t know how to dress, or they’re too thin or too fat or too plain. But the truth is, I only notice those things because of the real reason— that I’m just not feeling anything. But people don’t want to hear that. They always want an explanation. So I have to come up with something concrete even though feelings aren’t like that. If I did meet a guy and I felt happy with him for whatever reason, I wouldn’t give a rat’s ass what he wore or how tall he was or what he did for a living. But when I’m with someone and it just doesn’t feel right, that’s when I start noticing the bad haircut or Chicago accent or unibrow. And it’s true that tomorrow I may go home with someone who you think is totally wrong for me. And the next day I might meet a perfectly nice guy who you think I should feel excited about, but I don’t. But if I do go home with someone, it means for a change, something feels right. For a change, I’m feeling hopeful. I just want to feel happy when I’m with someone.
-Caren Lissner, Starting From Square Two

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

“Just for future reference, don't use words like "love" anymore. It's a very sensitive word and it wears out quickly. Romeo barely says it, but John Hinckley filled up a whole journal with it. To put it into your terms, it's a currency that's easily devalued. Pretty soon you're saying it whenever you hang up the phone or whenever you leave. It turns into an apology. Then it's an excuse. Some assholes want it to be a bulletproof vest: don't hate me; I love you. But mostly it just means - more. More, more - give me something more. A couple of years from now, when you're on your own completely, if you really fall in love, if it really comes to that - and I pity you if it does - you have to look right down into the black of her eyes, right down into the emptiness in there and feel everything, absolutely everything she needs and you have to be willing to drown in it. You'd have to want to be crushed, buried alive. Because that's what real love feels like - choking. They used to bury some women in their wedding dresses, you know. I thought it was because all those husbands were too cheap to spring for another gown, but now it makes sense: love is your first foot in the grave. That's why the second most abused word is "forever".”

Monday, September 7, 2009

“For once in my life, I don’t have to try to be happy.
When I’m with you, it just happens.”

Sunday, September 6, 2009

“Do you know what girls want? They want real conversations and real love. We want cute dates together, nothing expensive. The truth is we only want to be with you. We want to hold hands and lie beneath the stars. We want to be able to say something stupid and not worry about it. We want a guy that will love us for nothing but being us: plain and simple.”

Saturday, September 5, 2009

“Our love is a book that has been written for centuries, out of our control, and yet we get to revise it, add to it every day. We are the lucky ones. We found each other, and early at that. So don’t worry, my love, about loving me a certain amount. You are teaching me how to love and it feels a lot like learning to walk again on stiff, underused legs. But I’m learning and I’m running to you.”
-Anais Escobar

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

I’ll always remember that night that you looked into my eyes.
You looked deep inside and found something no one ever saw.
I’ll always remember the night that we stared at each other for a little too long.
You took me as I was and never questioned my values.
I’ll always remember the night that we became more than friends.
You saw a different side of me, and I took you for all you were.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

“I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we’re wrong for each other, wondering whether we’ve got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize I’ve been thinking about her for 23 hours and I come back to there’s something about her, I can’t stay away from. Something about her, that makes me want to love her.”

Thursday, August 27, 2009

“I believe in love and lust and sex and romance. I don’t want everything to add up to some perfect equation. I want mess and chaos. I want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me. I want to feel passion and heat and sweat and madness and I want Valentines and Cupids and all the rest of that crap. I want it all.”
-The Mirror Has Two Faces

Friday, August 21, 2009

“I ask myself why, and in that same breath, as I watch you, I get my answer. It’s everything about you; it’s that teasing smile, that warm scent. It’s the curve of your arms, the tousle of your hair, the ring of your voice. It’s just everything about you. But more than that, it’s everything about me. It’s everything about the way you make me laugh, cry, smile and hurt. It’s everything about the way you make me feel. And that’s everything that I cannot, and would not, want to let go off.”
Any comments,
in your own words, what Love is to you?

Thursday, August 20, 2009

It takes a little while to realize you love someone I think… that you can say you fell in love the moment you laid eyes on him/her. You can, I’m not a total skeptic. There are stories of age-old couples who talk about how they just knew the moment they saw, or met each other.
But it takes more than that to realize how much you truly can say you love someone. To come to terms with the thought of wanting to just be with them. For the stupidest things like wanting to sacrifice the last cheese sausage so they get to eat it (lolol & i love cheese sausages).

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

As people, we all take the time to figure out what our hearts need.

Sometimes with a little temptation and desire for the unknown, having something we don’t need can become more appealing.

-Boy Meets Love

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

“I love you” means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. “I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.”

Monday, August 17, 2009

Hey readers, notice i've added the "Reactions" bar below each entry. Go ahead and let me know how you feel 'bout each entry! I love to receive comments but i don't get them often. ): But it's alright, this is easier for you guys yes. {:

xo, J

Sunday, August 16, 2009

“Each lover that doesn’t work gives you a new set of eyes and another piece of baggage to carry around with you. Sometimes though, some of the baggage gets taken by someone who loves you enough for the both of you.”
-Anaïs Escobar, Love Notebook #6

Friday, August 14, 2009

“I wanted to be the person he told things to. I wanted him to think I was pretty, I wanted him to be reminded of me by stuff I liked- pistachios and hooded sweatshirts and the Dylan song Girl from the North Country- and I wanted him to miss me when we were apart. I wanted him to feel, when we were lying in bed together, like he couldn’t imagine anywhere better.”
-Curtis Sittenfeld, Prep
“I like people listening when I speak,
I like surprises, I'm a typical girl who wants
everything my way, I know I'm so difficult,
I do everything you tell me not to.
But have faith in me, I'm still learning,
I do want to be a much better person for you.”

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

100th entry

“I don’t want to go out there and meet new people. I don’t want to. I’m tired of it. I’m tired and I’m scared. I already got my heart broken one too many times. I’m not ready to hand it out again. I guess what I’m afraid of is that I’ll find someone new, and fall in love with them, and then get hurt again. I don’t want to go through that. I really don’t. I mean, I do want someone to love and to be by my side, but I’m just afraid of falling in love again. I’m a walking contradiction: I want to fall in love, but at the same time, I don’t want to experience the hurt and pain that is associated with it.”

Sunday, August 9, 2009

“I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we’re alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.”
-Paulo Coelho

Thursday, August 6, 2009

“I like being on my own. Relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in the one of the most beautiful cities in the world, we might as well have fun when we can, and save the serious stuff for later.”
-500 Days of Summer