100th entry

“I don’t want to go out there and meet new people. I don’t want to. I’m tired of it. I’m tired and I’m scared. I already got my heart broken one too many times. I’m not ready to hand it out again. I guess what I’m afraid of is that I’ll find someone new, and fall in love with them, and then get hurt again. I don’t want to go through that. I really don’t. I mean, I do want someone to love and to be by my side, but I’m just afraid of falling in love again. I’m a walking contradiction: I want to fall in love, but at the same time, I don’t want to experience the hurt and pain that is associated with it.”