Have you felt so brutally beaten inside. Missed someone that you wish you could pull them out of your mind and hug them for real. Love turn into Hate. Why this slow pain could kill you so fast. Felt so pathetic all you could do was watch from afar. Killing someone with words. When you push someone away when all you want to do is pull them closer. When this particular person who means so much to you comes by, you hold on because that's normal human reaction to keep those you love close but what if it just makes you wanna push the person away because he/she carries the key to your heart and you're afraid you'll fall to deep and before you know it, there's no fairytale ending. Because you're so fragile when you're open you'll rather keep closed. Love is Not Blind, it's just that because it's willing to see less of some and more of some. You tell yourself you're just thinking too much, you're being silly, but something slaps you hard across the face to drown yourself in reality. You fight with your demons

and you

The worst kind of pain is not knowing the cause of it, but knowing it's right there inside, right there, hitting you hard.

Crawl into your head, crawl into your bed.

- xanga/odeuseamor